Wednesday, September 21, 2011

At Six Months


At Six Months

And as
Six months
Go by
You start to leave
A tooth brush
At each
Other's place

As if
Kissing
And sharing the
Same
Tooth brush
Are different

Hands are held
And bodies
Closer together
At more
Points
In life

Sleep overs
No longer
Invites but
Accepted
Occurrences
Even when
Unnanounced

And the thought
Of love
Flirts
In the mind
Even
In the heaviest
Moments of
Sex.

But go to
Sleep
After it's
All said
And done
To dream
Of what's coming
Next

And well
Wake up
To what's happening
Now
The thought
No longer
But the
Reality
Of this turning
Into a
Lifestyle

Not just any
Lifestyle
But one
One can get
Used to
And feel
Good
About

And that's
About
As much
As one
I guess
Can
Feel
At
Six Months

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Chicken Cesar Salads


Chicken Cesar Salads

Something
Has to come up
But what
What is
Worth
Eating to come up

It’s painful
To watch
Watch what
Happens
Happens to her

The treatments
Are supposed to
Work
But they don’t
Still we
Try
We
Try for her

Chicken Cesar salads
Is what she
Eats
Before the chemo
She likes them
Always after
She throws
It up
Though

Every time
It chews me up
From the
Inside
And spits me
Out
I feel like
I’m right there
With her
I throw up
Sometimes
After her treatments
Too

But something
Has to come up
It always does
And it hurts her
To throw up
But
She says the
Chicken Cesar Salads
Don’t make
The chemo
So bad

All she
Wants to know
All we
Want to know
Is when she can
Go home
And be done with this
Done with the
Chemo
Done with the
Cancer
And done with the
Chicken Cesar Salads

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Wait


Wait

Running away
For good
From her
Or does
She run
Quicker
Avoiding
Each scene
Canceled reservations

A text
Or phone
Call
But not
A letter
Because
Well
Conceived
Thoughts
Would
Take too
Long
To write
Deliver
Understand

Return
To sender
The letter
Or just
His
Her thoughts
About
The other
However
Uniquely
The same

Away
Far
Fast
Away
When
All the
Other wanted
Was
Him
Her
To wait

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Tonight's Plans


Tonight's Plans

And tonight
I wanna
Drive you
Home
Drop you
Off
And
Kiss you
On your
Cheek
Wishing
You
Goodnight

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Drugs and Not So Much Love


Drugs and Not So Much Love

Coke
Pills
The like
A Friday night
Out
A town
To own
Tonight

Texts
From
Possibilities
Of a night
To come

Loaded on
Powders
and Liquids
A diet
For the
Skinny
On most
Nights

Drugs by
Models
Wannabes
But no love
From those
Who
Know
Better

Nights
Out
Drugs
Outs

Good night
Drugs
And
Not so
Much
Love

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Final Moments Of A Setting Sun


Final Moments Of A Setting Sun

And as the tears
Came down my
Face
Like the rainy
Day it was
Outside

I wasn’t afraid
Anymore
Of what would
Happen

Of what could
Happen
Somewhere I knew
Everything
Would be ok
Even though
It wasn’t

There was
Blood
A lot of it
As it was pooling
Around my
Motionless body

Don’t play
The hero
I thought
I could save
Someone
Make a difference
In this lifetime
Not in my lifetime
But someone
Else’s
Don’t be a hero
I tried

Two shots
To my
Chest
I never thought
It could
It would
Hurt like
This

Things got
Lighter
I started
Fading
Like the sun sets
Every night
Only to come up
The next
Morning
I knew I wasn’t
Coming up with
The sun
This would be
My last
Sunset

I grew tired
My eyes
Heavy
Like my legs

The ambulance
Is on its way
I hear someone
Say
It will be too
Late
Someone else
Whispers

I look up
At the stranger
Holding me
I smile
In the
Final moments
Of the setting
Sunset
I take my
Last breath

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Don't Hate Me


Don’t Hate Me

Don’t hate me
Because
I had to
Give you up
I had to
I had to give up
Something
Anything
You

It hurt a lot
You hurt a lot
It still does
You have no idea
What I’ve been through
Some days

I knew
I had to move on
Move on
Without you
It’s tough
But one day
I think
I out grew
This relationship
With you

It never was
Anything
For that matter
It was
Only a wish
Only a hope
Only a dream
But now
Nothing

I feel sick sometimes
When I think about it
About you

Now you
Claim
Think
Question
And wonder
What happened
Why

You think I hate
You
I just couldn’t
Put myself through
Another day
Of this

When I wanted
Something
Anything
To happen
I think I wished
Too much
Or tried
Too hard
Don’t hate me

Don’t hate me
Because this
This is just me
Just me giving up
Giving up
And
Moving on