Damn Lovers

Damn Lovers

Friends
Foes
Dinner
Drinks
Behind
Backs
Of loved ones

Sketchy
Calls
Texts
E-mails
Cover ups

Government agencies'
Safest secrets
Locked up
Between
Sealed
Lips
Kissing

Crushed
A heart
Love
Locked down
Now let
Loose
In rage
Unhappiness

But watching
It all
Unfold
Not saying
A word
First degree
Witness

Bloody
The tongue
Bleeds
For it
Cannot
Speak

Someday
One day
All exposed
Transcripts
To the papers
For
Consumers
Interested
In the marriage
Business

Now just another
Statistic
Of failed
Love

Yes Please

Yes Please

Yes please
To waking up
Next to you
Blueberry pancakes
For breakfast
Over the morning's paper
And daily horoscopes

Yes please
To going out
Out to eat
Out to the movies
Or out for drinks
Out anywhere with you

Yes please
To holding
My hand
Kissing your cheek
And cuddling
With you

Yes please
Up all night
Movies
Long talks
And country music

Simply put
Yes please
Pretty please
Yes please
To being
With you

I want
That most
Yes please

Emptiness In A Glass Of Water

Emptiness In A Glass Of Water

I wake
Up early
This morning
After going
To bed
A few hours ago

I can’t decide
Whether
I’m still
Drunk
Or just
Hung over
From the
Taste of
Gin in my
Mouth

I’ll let
You be the
Judge

I brush my
Teeth
Shower
And start
My day

No coffee today
Makes
My headaches
Worse

I drink
Water
Instead
Fills my stomach
With false
Emptiness

Just like
Last night
How I try
To talk
To you
But fall short

I can’t form
Words
Nothing
Interesting
To
Talk about
Because you
Can’t form
A conversation

Back
The cup is
Full
Full of water
My stomach is
Full
Full of water

But I’m empty
Of nothing
Full of heartache
And sorrow

Emptiness
In a glass
Of water

At Six Months

At Six Months

And as
Six months
Go by
You start to leave
A tooth brush
At each
Other's place

As if
Kissing
And sharing the
Same
Tooth brush
Are different

Hands are held
And bodies
Closer together
At more
Points
In life

Sleep overs
No longer
Invites but
Accepted
Occurrences
Even when
Unnanounced

And the thought
Of love
Flirts
In the mind
Even
In the heaviest
Moments of
Sex.

But go to
Sleep
After it's
All said
And done
To dream
Of what's coming
Next

And well
Wake up
To what's happening
Now
The thought
No longer
But the
Reality
Of this turning
Into a
Lifestyle

Not just any
Lifestyle
But one
One can get
Used to
And feel
Good
About

And that's
About
As much
As one
I guess
Can
Feel
At
Six Months

Chicken Cesar Salads

Chicken Cesar Salads

Something
Has to come up
But what
What is
Worth
Eating to come up

It’s painful
To watch
Watch what
Happens
Happens to her

The treatments
Are supposed to
Work
But they don’t
Still we
Try
We
Try for her

Chicken Cesar salads
Is what she
Eats
Before the chemo
She likes them
Always after
She throws
It up
Though

Every time
It chews me up
From the
Inside
And spits me
Out
I feel like
I’m right there
With her
I throw up
Sometimes
After her treatments
Too

But something
Has to come up
It always does
And it hurts her
To throw up
But
She says the
Chicken Cesar Salads
Don’t make
The chemo
So bad

All she
Wants to know
All we
Want to know
Is when she can
Go home
And be done with this
Done with the
Chemo
Done with the
Cancer
And done with the
Chicken Cesar Salads

Wait

Wait

Running away
For good
From her
Or does
She run
Quicker
Avoiding
Each scene
Canceled reservations

A text
Or phone
Call
But not
A letter
Because
Well
Conceived
Thoughts
Would
Take too
Long
To write
Deliver
Understand

Return
To sender
The letter
Or just
His
Her thoughts
About
The other
However
Uniquely
The same

Away
Far
Fast
Away
When
All the
Other wanted
Was
Him
Her
To wait

Tonight's Plans

Tonight's Plans

And tonight
I wanna
Drive you
Home
Drop you
Off
And
Kiss you
On your
Cheek
Wishing
You
Goodnight

Drugs and Not So Much Love

Drugs and Not So Much Love

Coke
Pills
The like
A Friday night
Out
A town
To own
Tonight

Texts
From
Possibilities
Of a night
To come

Loaded on
Powders
and Liquids
A diet
For the
Skinny
On most
Nights

Drugs by
Models
Wannabes
But no love
From those
Who
Know
Better

Nights
Out
Drugs
Outs

Good night
Drugs
And
Not so
Much
Love

Final Moments Of A Setting Sun

Final Moments Of A Setting Sun

And as the tears
Came down my
Face
Like the rainy
Day it was
Outside

I wasn’t afraid
Anymore
Of what would
Happen

Of what could
Happen
Somewhere I knew
Everything
Would be ok
Even though
It wasn’t

There was
Blood
A lot of it
As it was pooling
Around my
Motionless body

Don’t play
The hero
I thought
I could save
Someone
Make a difference
In this lifetime
Not in my lifetime
But someone
Else’s
Don’t be a hero
I tried

Two shots
To my
Chest
I never thought
It could
It would
Hurt like
This

Things got
Lighter
I started
Fading
Like the sun sets
Every night
Only to come up
The next
Morning
I knew I wasn’t
Coming up with
The sun
This would be
My last
Sunset

I grew tired
My eyes
Heavy
Like my legs

The ambulance
Is on its way
I hear someone
Say
It will be too
Late
Someone else
Whispers

I look up
At the stranger
Holding me
I smile
In the
Final moments
Of the setting
Sunset
I take my
Last breath

Don't Hate Me

Don’t Hate Me

Don’t hate me
Because
I had to
Give you up
I had to
I had to give up
Something
Anything
You

It hurt a lot
You hurt a lot
It still does
You have no idea
What I’ve been through
Some days

I knew
I had to move on
Move on
Without you
It’s tough
But one day
I think
I out grew
This relationship
With you

It never was
Anything
For that matter
It was
Only a wish
Only a hope
Only a dream
But now
Nothing

I feel sick sometimes
When I think about it
About you

Now you
Claim
Think
Question
And wonder
What happened
Why

You think I hate
You
I just couldn’t
Put myself through
Another day
Of this

When I wanted
Something
Anything
To happen
I think I wished
Too much
Or tried
Too hard
Don’t hate me

Don’t hate me
Because this
This is just me
Just me giving up
Giving up
And
Moving on

Breakfast Talks

Breakfast Talks

I wake up
Next to you
It’s good
To wake up
Next to
Something
Someone

It’s late
In the morning
Hungry
Breakfast time

Cereal
Bananas
And juice
I’ll buy
The sugar
Next time

Breakfast
Tastes
Like breakfast

We talk
Have breakfast talks
I feel comfortable
Talking
To you
Telling you
Things
I don’t show
Or tell other people

So tonight
Come back
To bed
With me
Because
I can’t wait
Until morning
Because
Morning brings
Breakfast talks

Wine And Dine

Wine And Dine

Too much wine
Tonight
While I dine
But the ride
Home
Won’t be fine

Ride home
Ride home
Alone
And what’s that
About
My vice you say
It’s just like
Having lice
You think you
Get rid of them
But they come back
And they travel
Travel in packs

Something to sleep too
That something
Isn’t you
Or the thought
Because we always
Fought
And it made me
Distraught

Oh well
Life throws
Curve balls
And I get chased
Down the halls
Of my nightmares
In my dreams
Nothing is
What it seems

Don’t stay alive
Or get the wrong
Vibe
Of me
But strive
To do something
Positive

Stay in school
And try
To be cool

There’s always
Another girl
Worth a whirl
At the game of
Life
Who someday
Could be your
Wife
If it fails
Don’t go
And cut your
Wrists
With the knife

There’s another
Chance
And if anything
You can always
Move to France
Because they love
Romance

Until then
It’s goodbye
I’m about to drink
This dry
Wine
While I dine
Because on the ride
Home
I’ll be traveling
Alone

Standing On The Edge Of Summer

Standing on the Edge of Summer

I’m standing on the edge of summer
And it’s only two in the morning over here
I’m doing a better job forgetting you than sleeping alone
And you’re far away from me

It still feels like it’s yesterday
As I take a deep breath
And the night becomes morning
Still just as tired as the night before
Maybe if not more

They say there’s a lot to live for
And I still have a lot left to do
It’s a lot to think about sometimes
And probably why I don’t sleep
My black book keeps my thoughts organized though

Another day passes
And another summer has come and gone
I’m a lot older now
With my thoughts and ideas neatly organized
And maybe there’s someone next to me
But every time I look to see her face
I wake up.

New York

New York

New York
Is a place
Always on my mind
I’ve never been there
Yet
I can picture it
Like I was there
Yesterday

It’s expensive
To live
Let alone
Breathe
The thick city
Air
Nothing comes
Cheap
And certainly
Not free

Best places
To eat
Have cultured food
Home made
And exciting

The bars
Never close
Well they close at
Four A.M.
Or when you meet
That lucky girl
Just be careful
She’ll steal your
Heart
Like New York
Stole mine

The people you
Meet
Are unlike
Anyone else
Weird
Different
And sometimes odd
I feel like
I would fit in
In New York

It can be
Scary
In the night
Or how
The business
Is so cut
Throat
It will eat you
Alive

But this is why
People
Are drawn to this
City
Every year
Drawn to the
Excitement
Of the glow
The aura
Of this beautiful
Yet daunting city

The city
I feel in love
With
The city I’ve
Never
Been too

New York

Appreciate Her

Appreciate Her

And songs
Like this
Make you
Wanna
Dance
Slowly
At 2 AM
Only
You
And her
An audience
Made of
Only stars
In the night

Or because
On weekends
You'd rather
Stay up
All night
To Talk
To her

And when
You sleep
Sleeping in
Only to
See her
For just
A few more
Minutes
In your
Dreams

But
At 2 AM
Hold
Her close
Hold her
Tight
And don't
Forget
To whisper
In her
Ear
That you
Love her

Because
You do
You really
Do

So dance
Slowly
Because
2 AM
Only comes
Once a
Night

And talk
All night
Because
It's just
Her
And
You

Appreciate
Everything
Appreciate
This
Appreciate
Her

Because
This
Her
Now
Only
Comes once

My Star

My Star

Stand out
In the crowd
A spotlight
On you
Tonight
Always
When
You’re
With me

I promise
You’re
Special
Because
You are
To
Everyone
But
Especially me

And if
To only
Hold your
Hand
Lovely
It would
Be

See
What I
See
Perfection
In front
Of me

Above
The rest
You
Stand
The best
I think
I know
For sure
Really

Trust me
For once
Always
Only me
Because
I could

Only
Trust
Someone
Well
Just you

So light
Up
Because
That’s
Who
You
Are
And will
Always
Be

To me