In The Now

In The Now

And I'm
Too old
To get
Inspired
By what
I was before
Back when
22 and
Grad school
Was accepted

Inspired
By women
But now
That comes
Off as
Creepy

V-necks
And skinny jeans
Standard wardrobe
Replaced by
Ties and
Slacks

As if I
Don't
Slack
Off enough
In real
Life
Or work
These days

And at this
Age
I'm Afraid
To still
Grow up
Because
By now
I expected
Myself
To be
Or at least
Settled

But change
To
Stay the
Same
Against
The flow

But when
I find
My flow
My goal
As I
Grow

Maybe
This
Will
Get easier
Or I'll
At least
Accept it
Better

Because
I'll never
Relive
The past
Again
So I
Guess I have
To live
In the now