In The Now
And I'm
Too old
To get
Inspired
By what
I was before
Back when
22 and
Grad school
Was accepted
Inspired
By women
But now
That comes
Off as
Creepy
V-necks
And skinny jeans
Standard wardrobe
Replaced by
Ties and
Slacks
As if I
Don't
Slack
Off enough
In real
Life
Or work
These days
And at this
Age
I'm Afraid
To still
Grow up
Because
By now
I expected
Myself
To be
Or at least
Settled
But change
To
Stay the
Same
Against
The flow
But when
I find
My flow
My goal
As I
Grow
Maybe
This
Will
Get easier
Or I'll
At least
Accept it
Better
Because
I'll never
Relive
The past
Again
So I
Guess I have
To live
In the now
Settling Down
As the
Time
Ticks on
By the days
And months
All the
Attempts
And hopes
With you
Have failed
Of something
I knew
But you
Just couldn't
See
Maybe
I'm too
Old
Acting
Or you're
Too young
Looking
But when
The day
Comes
That
Somehow
Our
Ages finally
Agree
To meet
I'll
Be past
The thought
Of you
Not Alone
Up at
5:43 AM
The sheets
Half removed
From the
Bed
The smell
Of
Cigarettes
While the
Taste
Of alcohol
From a
Wasted
Night
To go home
With her
Is
At least
Not alone
Anxious
Anxious to feel
Anxious
About something
What
I'm not sure
If I could Put
My finger on it
I'd be
Lying
A beer with Dinner
Normal enough
To make me
Sick
As hours later
My stomach
Turns
Twisting
In and out
Of line
And in space
A cup of
Tea
To clam me
Down
Speed things up
These days
It's hard to
Tell
But I tell you
This it's hard to
Sleep
Sleep with
These thoughts
Anxious enough
Something
I can't put
My finger on
Or off
Something
I can't get
Off of my mind
Love & War
And
In the
Deepest
Darkest
Moments
When all
Hope fails
And the
Towel
Has been
Thrown
You know
The white
The light
Hasn't
Completely
Disappeared
When we
Give up
We give
Up
To secretly
Hope
Wish
Dream
One
Last time
For that
Last
Chance
Second
Hopes
Granted
Tonight
Unlike
Other nights
When
It
Shouldn't
And
Because
Of that
It causes
Lost hope
But
Great
Reward
Simple
Concepts:
With war
There is
Love
And with
Love
There is
War
Without
Love
There is
War
And
Without
War
There is
Love
Ambulances In The Night
I saw her
Last night
In the middle
Of the street
Passed out
Maybe conscious
Not dead
I hope not
Someone calls
911
And soon
Ambulances
In the night
Arrive without
Warning
Disguised
As angles
To save her
Life
I stand
Frozen in
Fear and
Helplessness
I watch
As they
Taker her
Away
The next day
I stand in the
Same spot
Where she lied
Wondering
If she’s
Alive
If she’s
All right
If she
Made it
Through the
Night
I say
A prayer
And walk
Away
Knowing
Her life
Will be
Changed
Changed forever
Today
Let A Good Thing Die
I have a
Bad habit
Of watching
Letting
A good thing
Die
I do it
Sometimes
Like this
One time
I met a girl
Who I actually
Like
And she actually
Liked me
Who knew
A simple
Moment
To throw it
Off
Enough
To let
A good thing
Die
Severe
What’s left
Delete her
Number
Never
Talk to her
Again
I lose
Interest
Things might have
Worked out
But I digress
I let her die
A good thing
Die
Because
I don’t want
To lose
So I let it
Die
Before anything
Can be made
Of it
