Hiatus

Hiatus

Shit
The thoughts
I once
Thought
Don't make
Sense
Rather
Just bounce
Off the walls

And I watch
As the words
Dance
In circles
In my dreams
My sleep

I meant what I
Said
Years ago
Just not
Right now

And I'm
So far away
From everything
Even though
I'm sitting
Next to her
Love
The love
And lies
That reality
Believes in

And a night
Off
From this city
Doesn't seem
So bad

Because
Staying up
All night
For no reason
Just waiting
Lost
It's touch

But turning
It all in
Rather
Giving in
Gaining
Touch
Back in
Reality

Is optimism
For the
Moment

Letting go
Letting my
Guard down
Helpful Hopelessness
Is my
Hiatus