Friday, December 27, 2013

Ghost Figures

Ghost Figures

In the night
The
Smoke
And
Mirrors

All closing
The shadows
Interchanging
But
No one
Accepting
The role
Of
Responsibility

And now
15 years
As if
It
Isn't
Enough
Ostracized
Exiled
Now
To be
Welcomed back
Parades
Honoring
the
Dis service
Of

Solitude
Abandonment

My Sister

My Sister

My sister
I've never
Had
But I'd
Think
Twice
Before I
Told a lady
Anything
Except
Her

Blood brothers
From
Another
Mother
Yet
Not
even though
I'd call
And defend
Her as
My own

Grew up
Apart
Yet in
the same
Lifeline
Just miles
Distanced
Away

To the
Advice
Given
And
Advice
Refused
Tough love
Respected
to the
End

For she
My sister
If not
From my
Mother
Yet
A sister
More than
A sister
Could
Ever
Be

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Transatlantic Goodbyes

Transatlantic Goodbyes

Paralyzed
By
Transatlantic
Flights
Trips accross
Love lines

Closing
Your eyes
But it
Burns
From the lack
Of sleep
Or tears
For which
You can't
Produce
Anymore

Just
Like
Love
That feeling
She can't
Or won't
Produce
For you

Economy comfort
Doesn't
Bring comfort
To your
Fears
Turned
Into
Dreams
Only
Reality
When
You awake

Cabin pressure
Pressured
Thoughts
Over her
With
No place
to go

Transatlantic
Flights
Means
Good bye
For now
Good bye
Forever


Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Happy Birthday Halloween

Happy Birthday Halloween 

Tickets to
Flights
Just airline
Miles
Cashed
Rather

Not me but
Birthdays
I'd rather not
Celebrate
Alone

Expensive
Drinks
For expensive
Women
Who
I hate

But
Shirts
That
Fade
One color
Not short
Skirts

Dress apparel
Dress down
Becuase
Fuck

Halloween
Is hateful
Lust
Dressed in
Lingerie

Drink
Up
Stare
Down

And tomorrow
Get out
Of
Town 

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Vegas

Vegas

Drinks I drink
Bring out
The best
Thoughts in

Nights that
Can be
Relateable
To the
Opposite sex

Except
I grow
Weak
Kneed
At the
Thought
Of being

Self
Sufficient
Except
in my
Thoughts

Liquid
Courage
Excites
The evening's
Festivities
Except
I'd rather
Text
than
Speak

For my voice
Slurs
My thoughtful
Confidence
Once
Witty
Now just

Hazy
Like my
Eyes

Women
I'd aspire to
Have
Until
My sobering
Eyes
Make
Contact
With
Reality

Hotel
Pillows
Two beds
Worth

Enough
Not to
Feel
Worthless
But crowded
Overwhelmed and
Lucky
I guess

But at least
The drinks
Were free
And the
Vegas lights
Were
Bright

For without
Either
I'd
Truly be
Alone

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Sleeping Over

Sleeping Over

There's not
A lot of
Good that comes
Out of it
Or us

Sleeping over
While
Trying to
break old
Habits
Trying
To break

From her
Grasp
in the
Morning
Tangled
In sheets

Cold
When I touch
Her
But colder
When I let
Go

So
Under the
Covers
Making eye
Contact
Looking
At her
At her
Most

Vulnerable
With out
As I am with
Her

And
Morning breakfast
Coffee
Patios
Crepes
How
the

French
That she
Speaks
I'll never
Understand

But
I understand
This
that
The door
Will
Always
Be

Open
To the
Thought
of not
Letting
Her in
The next
Night
Tonight

Monday, October 21, 2013

Blue Skies and Sunny Days

Blue Skies and Sunny Days

On the sunny
Day
In the field
The parks
Vast
Green space

I left her
Even though
We still
Held hands
I left her
In my mind

Already
Disappearing
In thought 

Cloudless
Like
My mind
Spotless
Of her
And her
Thoughts

Wiped
Clean
The
Tapestry of
Memories
Ideas

For as if
Letting go
Was that
Easy

Even
If
I didn't want
 To

Even if
I have
Yet
  To


Friday, October 11, 2013

Jewelry & Clothes

Jewelry & Clothes

Happy New Years
and the
Surprise
you got her
Cocktail
Dresses
Earrings
Attractive

For when
The ball
Drops
She looks
As beautiful
As she
Always does
If
Not
More

But
Do it
Up
Dress it up
Not down
For tonight
Counts

Because
jewelry and clothes
doesn't buy
Happiness

It just buys
items
To
Pretty up
A girl

   To make
You fall
In love
With her
Again

When all
You want
To do
Is let
Her go 

Sleeping Alone

Sleeping Alone


The nights
Don't do it
Justice
Enough to
Sleep

So
I bought
a bigger
Bed for when
I get
Lucky
Except
Now I
feel even
more
Alone

And when
I sleep
Alone
I take up
the whole
bed
As if

Sharing
My heart
let alone
sheets
Means something

And the
Distaste
In the
morning

Except I'm
getting
Around that by
Sleeping less

Becuase
Every night
It only
Hurts
Until you
Close
Your
Eyes

Classy Girls

Classy Girls

Broad appeal
Or a
Sexy steal
To justify
What I see
Her
Looking
Back at me

Those soft eyes
That I
See right through

I know
What she knows

I read her
Thoughts
She reads
My mind

Whispering in
Her ear
She looks
Back at
Me

She's not going
Home
Alone
She's just
Not going
Home
With me

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Altitude Sickness

Altitude Sickness

The crack
Of dawn
Taxi cab
Rides
Airport
Planes

The pains
Of growing up
You don't
Grow
Without
The up

Up in the sky
Beverages
Adults drinks
Now
Met at
First class
Residencies
Just in time
For

Arrivals
Limos
Names on
Signs
High hopes
Or just
High
From flights
Altitude

Sickness
It's a bitch
The drinks
The turbulence
Or just
Home

Missing
In some
Order
Scatterbrained
Because
Starbucks
No longer
Helps
Focus
My thoughts

Except focus
On the missing
Not left
To gain
For gained
Is no
Longer valued
For having
Is worthless

But

Not having
Is priceless







 

Dependency

Dependency

Dependency
Well I guess
That depends
On how dependent
You are

Rather alone
And too
Far
Away
From
The one
True love

But residing
Within
The city
Lies
Lies
Of tales
Outings
Other sexes
Involved

Opportunity
To go
Grow apart
Together
Generally speaking

But dependent
Not on one
Or the
Other
But the feeling
The idea
That one
Carries
With the
Name
The title
 
And it's all too
Easy
To confuse
And cross
Lines so
Quickly

Because dependency
Depends on
Strength
Rather
Weakness
From within 

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Easy Button

Easy Button

Questions
Easily enough
Answered
By her
Answers I can 
Find
Yet excuses
Needed to
Speak
To you

With
A smile
Everything
Answered
A five
Minute
Vacation

I spare 
Them 
So I don't draw
Attention
Yet I think
She knows

Easy questions
And easy 
Buttons 

If only 
Asking
Her 
Out
Were 
Just as
Easy

Monday, August 26, 2013

Unwritten Letters

Unwritten Letters

In life
Some things
Are meant
To be
Written
But not
Read

Life as
It happens
We realize
The good
We create
And can take
Away

The
Truth
Although
The only
True
Thing
Can still
Hurt

For
Those brave
Written words
Read
One can
Only hope
She
Sees
The truth
In the lie

That Girl

That Girl

There's nothing like
That girl
Who tells
You
No
When all
 You want
Is yes

A mind
Of her own
Yet
Sexy enough
To keep
Eyes
Attached
At all times

The music
Around her
Seems
Like slow
Motion
As she signals
 you over

To see
What she
Sees
For the second
Remotely
Adoring
 I see her

That girl
Moves
Seductively

 Take her
Home
and
Regret it
But Don't
And regret it
More

That girl
In your thought
Your eyes
Closed
And mind open

You just can't
Say hello
But Must
say
More

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

New Hampshire

New Hampshire

Dew on the grass
Every morning
Waiting
To wake up
And watch the sun
Peak itself
Outside
The clouds

The lake
View
Place
Porch Swings
and
A small
Store

New
Hampshire
Breathes
quiet

Quietly
Enough
To hear
The birds
flying
Through the
Clouds

In time
For summer

In time
For
Arriving
Home

Monday, June 17, 2013

Business Plans

Business Plans

Drinks over
Ex's women I should
of never
Dated

But I met you
Older
Old fashioned
Termed
Loyalty

Splitting
Stories
Hairs
Lifestyle
choices
We can both
Agree on

But
Business plans
cancel
Future plans

Detriot
This while
New York
That
Family ties
Previous
Engagements

Therefore
Not engaging
With you

Lonesome
The thought
Your thoughts
Exactly

Rather put
Up with
And
Put off

Times
And
Capital gains
Over conversational
Drinks

But unless
Business plans
Change
I'll never
Change
My thoughts
Towards you

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Hope Shouldn't Be lost

I guess you lost
Hope
For a few months
Because
I could barely write
Let alone
Pick Up
a phone

And maybe you've
Moved on
Because I would
Know better

But I still get drawn back
To
Her
You Rather
Because

I couldn't
Decide otherwise
Because
I just didn't know
What to do

So reinvention
And unvited
Appearing
As if
nothing went
Wrong
Down the drain
Between you and I

But I'll tell
All of this
To You
 tomorrow

When I can
Handle it
Handle you

Sharing is Caring

I'll never Share
What I have
to Say
Rather imposing

Orange juice
in the morning
Simple enough

After last night
After we
Just met

Shaving off
the Smoke
I'll drive
 You to
Starbucks

As we sit out
Side
Enjoy
Lattes
Or some other
Coffee
Dry at least
My taste

And
Send you
on
Your way

Her Tattoo

Don't Scream
Ruin
This imperfect moment

Because you're
Breaking Up
We're breaking up

This disaster
The words
From your
 lips
Don't make sense

well They
Do
But I don't
Want to hear it

So scream
All you want
I'll miss it

Especially
your tattoo
I always
Admired





Sentimental Letters 

TwoDays
Two Weeks
TwoMonths
Two Years

I guess
Breaks are enough
Miles away
Breaking course
Record
Path

Well
I send letters
Sentimental
But 
Meaningless
In the words
I write
Worlds
Apart

Thoughts alike
Because
We grew up
All in the
Same
Next door

Our lives
Planned out
Before I was
Four
But I planned
It with  you

Now the
Only thing
planned
Is not having
The plan
And
Your
Too far
Away

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Deep Drifting

Deep Drifting

And
She has to
Know
Knowing
That the
Tide goes
Away
Sometimes

And doesn't
Come back
But the sun rises
Bringing back
The tide

The want
Still rides
High
In the tide
As if
Only now
Further
Drifting
Off
Deeper

Into
Waters
Uncharted
Too deep
To tread

No land in
Sight
No return
Too hard
To swim
Back

Shallow
Waters
Never seemed
So shallow
As I was
Once

And drifting
Beyond
Search lights
Radio signals

Hoping
Only one
To
Drift
Back

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

First Dates

First Dates

I dress
Modest
As if not
To give away
Myself

But I come
Off
Complete
Whole
No strings
No frays
Clean shaven

Dinner
Drinks
Appetizers
Conversation
Paid for
By good looks
And hopes

And not the
Hopes
Of sleeping
Although
Both
Sexes
Wish upon

And numbers
Swapped
That blonde hair
I guess
I guess
That's why
I can't
Get
Her out

Sadly
Courtesy texts
Rather
Smiley faces
Explaining
Tardiness

Only to
Follow the
Rule
Two texts
And no replies
Signaling
The end
Of
That
That first date

Monday, January 28, 2013

NW Apartment

NW Apartment

Signing
New leases and
Signing away
Life for a year
Well hard
Earned money
Spent
Too much
For too little
Space

But
Living
In the city
Rather closer
To her
Well
For her
Not to
Know

Parties
Thrown
Neighbors
Grown
Close
Unlike
Past aquaintances

But
Unspent
Minues
Waking up
To catch
The sun
Rise
The city
Burning

For Her

That NW
Apartment
I still
Pretended
I was in college

And where
I met
Her
 Memories
I'll never
Forget
But take
with Me

Forever
In the city
Forever
The
NW Apartment

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Your Hand In Mine

Your Hand In Mine

There
Are no words
For the Deepest
Regrets
We regret

For the mistakes
We pile
In a
Corner
Hidden
From
Sight

Yet
Every
Morning
We wake
 Up
Breathing deeply
Deeper
Than the
Previous
Day

From exhaustion that
Doesn't add up
To the
Thought
Process
Processing
Right now

Restarts
Don't exist
Rather
Each
Day
Restarts
Life

Yet we
Don't forget
Only
Just grow
Days
Older
Wiser
Than the previous

To further
Put ourselves
Ahead
Because
Going back
Isn't
Part of the
Plan



Tuesday, January 15, 2013

The Personals

The Personals

Browsing
Personal stories
Rather
Narratives
Online classifieds
Classified dating
Classified as useless

Ranking those
Descriptive
Describing
Words
I never cared
About
Until now

And likes
Dislikes
Well done
Choosing
Wisely
Wisely enough
So I
Wouldn't
Choose you

Put here
To procreate
Yet creating
Conversations
Introductions
Lacks
Courage
Let alone
Similarities

For now
Forever
At least
Deemed
Useless
Personally
Classified
As single