Security

Security

Crowded bars

Night clubs

I'll never 

Attend 

Speakeasies

Ok tight 

Places 

Spaces

Sitting 

Next 

To her

Mixed

Drinks

Emotions

And body 

Language

My mind

A steel trap

My body

An open 

Book

Closer edging

Seats

Hands 

Perfume

Provocative 

Persuasive

Ideas

Beds

Slept in

And breakfasts

Tomorrow

Morning 

Has

My heart

Racing 

Beating

Faster

Just in

Time

As

Security 

Steps in

I can't

Or won't

Let her

That close

To 

My heart 

Paris

Paris

Let's 

Jet set

Fly

My miles 

Worthlessly

Used

Paris

Where

I've been 

And you haven't

Yet

Well

Hours

Away

Bonuses

Burned

Like cash 

Cows

Milking returns

Sound 

Investments 

And our

Relationship 

Strains

And pulls

Tightly 

Enough

To let it

Slip

Through

Cracks

The city's

Old

Architecture 

And

Our 

Relationship 

Champagne

Dry

Not sweet

My

Love life

Between

The sheets

Espresso shots

Wake up calls

On life

And 

Sleepless

Hotel rooms

Of what

To do next

With her

With me

With us

Pictures

Taken

To capture

Memories

Only to be

Displaced 

Lost or forgotten

Reluctantly 

Returning

Home

Ground zero

To where

It started

And where 

It will end

But your 

Picture

Us

Together

Paris 

I'll never

Forget

Texting Tragedy

Texting Tragedy 

Hey I'm 

sorry

I forgot to 

respond 

the other day

..

I'm done

You're 

Chasing

Texts

Or you

You 

Don't 

Have to

'forget'

Because I

Won't

text

Anymore

Checked Baggage

Checked Baggage

A vacation 

A week

Away

Enough to 

Lose

Thoughts

Sleep

Feelings

Towards 

Her

Customs

Baggage

Checked

While 

Feelings left

Unclaimed

Stamped

Out

Opportunities

At love 

Discarded 

Just another

Passport 

Full

Not enough

Time

Money

And days off

Accounted

But

Not counted

For

Island

Vacations

Getaways

From

Feelings

Responsibility 

Him

Last chances

Skipped 

Passed up

Or ignored

Seat belts 

Buckled

Trays tables

Locked

And seats 

Up

She's too 

Far

He's not close 

Enough 

Far Away

Far Away

Plane trips

Hours

Although

I never

Calculated the

Distance 

The clouds

White

Like the beaches

Soft

Like your kisses

And

Warm

Like the sun

Far enough

To forget

Forgive 

Or

Move on

Distance

Is enough

To force 

Thoughts

Friendly

Reminders

Aside

Of her

Or us

And 

When she

Returns

I'll be 

Changed

Different

My mind and

Heart

In different 

Places 

You 

Are 

Just too

Far away

While She Sleeps

While She Sleeps

I fall

Asleep next to

Her 

Every night

But tonight

I remember 

Most 

Hotel

Beds

Casual

Kisses

Of sweet dreams

Well wishes

Before 

We drift off

Holding her

My arms wrapped

Around

And

My body 

Keeping 

Her warm

I sometimes 

Stay awake

Just long

Enough

To watch

After

She falls

Asleep

Unaware

Of me

Yet in

Her dreams

I know

Her mind

Is beautiful

And 

Each night

I try to

Fall asleep

Hoping

To meet 

Her in

Her dreams  

Better Deserving

Better Deserving

Shortened phone
Calls
Texts no longer
Notifying
Me of her
Thoughts

 Snapchat
Streaks
Stopped

One night
Spent up
All night
together
Too drunk
But happy

Changes
In thought
Storylines
Or just
Excuses
And
Back to school
Ambitions

Hesitation
In her voice
Just like
My new years
Resolutions
And tattoos
Sworn to
Never get

But I
Deserve better
she Says
Words
My mind
Doesn't
Comprehend at
the Moment

I just
wanted
Simple
I just
wanted
Happy
I just
wanted
Her

Before You Go, Don't

Before You Go, Don't

Beers
Tights
Her Cocktail
Dresses
Or jeans
Enough

To bite
My lip
At thoughts
Beyond my
Mind

Out of
Control
When
Around her

Nakedness
Exposed
While
Fully clothed

Mindful
Kisses
Making
My mind
Tumbling
Breathing

Deeply
As she
Edges closer
To me
I'm afraid

Of the dark
Or just
Her thoughts
Meanings
Hand in
Hers

Is mine
Right now
My eyes catching
Meeting
Hers

Brief moments
Of silence
Shared
And held
Together
Gently

Whispers
As
Her lips meet mine
Words
Lost
Without
Sound
I already know
What she's
Going to say

Her perfume
Soft
On the senses
But to never forget

I can't
Let her
Go

Hard Goodbyes

Hard Goodbyes

Let's say

Goodbye

And 

Let the sand 

Slip through

Our finger tips

With hands

Falling 

To our sides

Turning cold 

From once

Being

Warm

But were they

Ever

Warm

Were

They

Ever

Even

Touching

Why

Is it

So hard

To say

Goodbye

To let go

When

You 

Weren't even

Holding

On